Angie Charnock, 36, lives in Buckshaw Village, near Chorley, is married to Neil, has a four-year-old son Finley and is expecting twins. This week our Angie’s hormones play tricks on her – with the help of a moving TV moment...
I feel I might just have been in denial.
I’m obviously expecting a baby and that is clear to myself and anyone who sees my huge belly come round the corner well before the rest of me.
But two babies?
This has been a week of mixed emotions.
I’d been looking forward to finishing work and having more time to myself and with family but it hasn’t been quite what I’d expected.
I’m starting to feel completely overwhelmed at what is to happen to us very soon.
My to-do list hasn’t gone down; in fact it might actually be a little longer now.
When I finally do get some time to try and attack it I can’t build up enough energy and motivation to do any of it and would much rather nap or watch daytime TV!
I made the mistake of finally watching the recent TV documentary ‘The Triplets Are Coming’. It was a lovely programme and with mostly happy endings but it was a little too close to home for comfort.
I spent a good hour crying! My crazy hormones were not ready for it. Thank goodness we’re only having two babies, though!
I had been feeling a little complacent. When we first found out we were expecting twins I panicked about every possible complication but as my pregnancy has progressed and my babies are growing and developing exactly as they should, I’ve relaxed. A little more anxiety has now crept back into my brain.
I’m also losing sleep over what to pack in my hospital bag.
I know I’ve had a baby before but that was a single baby and four years ago, so I feel like a first time mother again.
Fingers crossed it will all come rushing back to me when the time comes.
I’m fairly certain that all my worries are completely normal, though, and that most of it is due to a lack of sleep and the hormones racing around my growing body. I’ve got a supportive family and my husband, as always, is ready to help me dial down the crazy.
I just want two healthy babies in my arms now.